Well this is consider my virgin log for this blog since the last time i touch blogging which is like way back....There's alot of emotions and stuff going through my mind trying to draft this entry i guess that is what happen when you are trying to just regurgitate what comes to you.

Finally found my home again with southernwaves, my fellow crew whom never left my side even though i was having a rough rough time in the army and finally being kicked out of OCS for some lame arsed reason. Really broke my heart i must say but well life goes on as usual like when did shit ever not fall on me, so get used to it. Funny thing is that just when i am bout to label this as THE most fucked up time of my life, after being dumped by both the army and her truely...my savior and that very someone came and scoop me up from the dirtbag. That savior was with me the past 14 years i been with him and that someone was what i would call it starstruck. Perhaps ah gong is playing tricks on me again i donno but surely im rather mesmerized by the chemistry.

The past few weeks were very worthwhile and its like a medicine taken to drive all my sorrows and boredom deep into Devy Jone's closet. Time spend with yh, tris, kh, cindy, jess at JBAC. 2STAR course. RIGEL. etc etc...it made me find myself again and sort of boost my confidence a little. Im just glad that the time i was away didn't matter to the guys and they took me back as their own right away. Gotta congratulate yh though for snagging our pollywog cindy haha it was a rather random magic as well which is why i say such stuff work in a twisted kinda way. When will i get to go a step further with Ms starstruck who knows? I guess im tired of being sad..like skipper said scouting is fun and i should be enjoying myself so fuck those whatsoever reasons that cause me to falter!!!




Signing out......Cheers and tight line
"HOOYAH"